I can't move from this place

"The few moments of communion with the world are worth the pain, for it is a world for others, an inheritance for others, a gift to others, in the end. When you make a world tolerable for yourself, you make a world tolerable for others."  Anaïs Nin


I've been really thinking a lot about moments in time recently.  Mostly, I believe, because I want to escape my past.  Sometimes, I do.  Maybe the ability to, with photography, pathetically retain a little moment that I was really savoring still reflects a tendency to save and hold and remember.  Perhaps I precisely construct that past, however.  You only do see what I choose for you to see.  The postcard-self, flawless.  What to say about the real self, the complete individual Gestalt?  Perhaps we are still all quite perfect.  People are more likely to focus on the negative aspects of life.  One criticism is only made up for by 10 compliments.  I worry that ignoring criticism will make me really seem weird and unordinary.  But, I think I have some control over this yet.  I do get a good amount of positive feedback, it feels good.


Strange people have been commenting more and more on this site which is exciting.  Only 2 or 3 so far, it somehow makes me feel connected to the world network here on this internet.  So they demonstrate moments of communion, perhaps.  Take my gifts, this website does make the world a better place for me and I want people to feel that way as well.


This weekend will be the first one in 3 weeks that I am not traveling.  So it will be good to do some growing at home.  I'm really interested in the color blue right now, I think.  Most of my wardrobe (funny word) is dark and/or blue.  I want to go out and get a really bright wool cardigan this weekend.  Red or orange.  It would really liven things up around here!  But until then, here is some blue.  At least its atmospheric.  Do you get the sense that you are on planet Earth from these photos?  I hope so.



































  

Hope Triptych

How to revive some inspiration in yourself by Michael C. Place.

The solution to a problem–
Slice and chop 2 medium onions into small pieces.
Put a medium sized pan on a medium heat with a few glugs of Olive oil.
Add the onions to the pan, and a pinch of salt and pepper.
Chop finely three varieties of fresh chilli (Birds Eye, Scotch Bonnet & Green/Red).
Add the chilli’s to the pan, stir together and cook for eight minutes.
Add about 500g of extra lean Beef mince to the pan.
Stir in so that the Beef is coated and lightly browned (should take approx. 2 minutes).
Add salt and pepper.
Add Red Kidney Beans and tinned chopped Tomatoes.
Stir well.
Add a pinch of Cinnamon.
Cook on a low heat for approximately 20 mins.
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Measure a cup and a half of Basmati Rice into a medium pan.
Add two and a quarter cups (the same cup you measured the Rice in) of cold water to the pan with the Rice.
Boil on a high heat until the lid rattles.
Turn down the heat to about half way and cook for eight minutes.
After eight minutes turn the heat off the rice, leave for four minutes (with the lid on).
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Plate up the Rice (on the side), add the chilli.
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Large glass of Red wine (preferably Australian or New Zealand).
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Now the important problem solving part–
Take the plates & pans to the sink.
Run a mixture of hot and cold (not too hot) water.
Add a smidgeon of washing up liquid (preferably for sensitive skin).
Start washing up, the mundane kicks in.
The mind clears and new thoughts and ideas appear.
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Enjoy a second glass of wine to savour the moment.

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Yes yes yes!  Go see A Single Man if you want to really love your moments.  When was your last moment?  Mine was this morning listening to Carl Sagan, drinking coffee and playing with Illustrator.  Now, time to ride to work on this beautiful morning.  Luckily, its mostly a motor action, riding the bike.  SO my consciousness is free to spin its own legs.  Next post: trip to Portland, Maine.

Ionel Sandovici

Dear Kostya and Andrew,

Thank you so much for sending across the Atlantic the envelope that lost its way to the other Cambridge! You were extremely kind to spend your own money to do so. After a bit of Internet search I found your blog and this e-mail address.
So, it’s great to know that the twin town has a twin street and that at number 26 lives another Libra. Fantastic! I also work in science as you do.
As you very well said it at the end of your card, this is indeed a wonderful Universe!

Very best wishes,
Ionel


Keep blogging. 26 Willow Way, Cambridge UK and 26 Willow St. Cambridge MA are now real friends and encourage YOUR continuing efforts in self-expression and personal growth.